A letter to GB on his second birthday 

I wasn’t sure if I was gonna do this on the blog or if I would write it for him privately. I worried maybe people wouldn’t want to read this sort of post…but then I remembered it is after all my blog and all ten of of who read it don’t seem to mind my sappy self too much.

I can’t believe it been a year I just went back and read the Letter I wrote for GB last year. I hope someday he actually reads them. And knows he was so deeply loved. So here we go….time for me to get all emotional.

My sweet GB,

Today you are two. Those words are so strange to write….even stranger to accept. When I was pregnant with you time moved so slow and I couldn’t stand the waiting. The idea of you ever being two felt so far away like it would never be real. Because you felt like you would never be real.

I dreamed about you long before I found out I was pregnant. I hoped and prayed and wished you into existence. And you are everything I ever dreamed and more. Sometimes so much it’s hard to handle. But I know these things that make you difficult now are going to be your strongest assets someday.

You inability to accept “no” or “you can’t” or “that’s not a good idea” will truly be a great thing in many ways some day. Your silly nature and the fact that you laugh so easily will be what draws people to you. And the love you so easily give to others will be something that brings you so much joy and maybe a little heartache. But that is just part of life.

This last year was a big one for us as a family. We moved to North Carolina briefly and even though we enjoyed it we couldn’t make it home. Texas called us back and we bought our first home as a family. And boy to we love it! 

We have been doing so much work and you have been more than eager to help. You love to help. You love daddy’s tools and you love to help me clean. You LOVE the vaccuum it has replaced the dishwasher as you main fascination. You ask me where the “baccuum” is about 100 times a day and rush to see it when I open the closest. 

You are talking more and more. You can say “dada” “momma” “nana” “Dougie” “dog” “kitty” “door” “vaccuum” “booboo is busy” “fishy” “swim” “go” and many more. I am loving hearing the little conversations you are trying to have. You can tell us when you go potty. You are starting to get better about sleeping.

You are wild, adventurous and rough and tumble. You still love the morning and when daddy comes home is still one of your favorites. But now you guys wrestle and run all over the house.

You love water. You love to swim. You love books and you love your family. You got to spend some time with your big brother and sister this year. And it was wonderful. 


I could go on and on. You are simply amazing. You light up my life so bright and I can’t get enough of the love you give me. I can’t believe I get to be your momma. That I get to hug you and teach you. I might not always do my best but I will always try. I will always try and be the mom you deserve. And I will love you so much….always.

Thank you sweet boy. You have given me so many gifts. The best is being your momma.

I love you 



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Santa gave me shingles

So this Christmas was certainly not ideal…..in the sense that a randomly viral strain awoke in my body and wrecked havoc on what is usually one of my most favorite times of the year. Thankfully I have a wonderful husband who finally talked me into going to the ER on Christmas (which is his birthday) because the rash on my face that I insisted would go away on its own had spread down on to my eye lid.. So my poor sweet marvelous husband sat with my on his freaking birthday in an ER. My dad was with us which was another blessing as he was able to take GB and help me over the next couple days while I recovered in a heap in various soft warm places around the house. I bet you all really want to see my hideous face rash and my pathetic attempts to hide it yes??

Shingles over a few days

Shingles over a few days

Disney band aids heal all

Disney band aids heal all

Thankfully we still managed to have quite a lovely holiday and GB didn’t notice a darn thing except for how many amazing gifts he got. This kid was SPOILED. We all were a little spoiled this year. Tony got his gold clubs (and I managed to wrap them) I got my kindle, my dad got a tablet and GB got well everything. We made Monkey bread which if you have never made it do it!!! Give in and be a fat kid like us. It’s amazing and so easy and was the best way to start Christmas morning.

So all in all even with being sick we had a great day. The hubs turned another year older, we filled our house with even more plastic crap, we are far too much food and we watched some good movies. And I can now read in the dark in bed. Man 2015 is gonna be a great year! 😉

Now please forgive me for the pictures in gonna post that make it look like we had a perfectly wonderful holiday. 😜





















Hope you all had a very Merry Christmas. Can’t wait to see what the year has in store for all of us.


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Thanksgiving 2014

Last week we got home from a week full of wonderful family time in Las Vegas. It was an absolute blast. I really couldn’t have imagined a better week.

Which makes me think about what I am thankful for this year. And makes me realize a lot has changed in my life in the last four years.

I guess most of all I am thankful for my family new and old, my wonderful friends, my husband, and second chances.

This was my first holiday with Tony’s family and the first time GB got to spend some time with his big brother and sister. It has taken some time to get us all here but I am so glad everyone was willing to work past it all. Because having this family means the world to us.

I am not sure what I enjoyed most watching GB with his grandparents or his siblings. We played games, went shopping, went for hikes, had dinners and hung out at Caesars palace.

I got to spend some time getting to know the amazing young adults my step kids have become. To say I am enamored and impressed with them would be putting it mildly.

These kids haven’t had it easy and they have certainly risen to the occasion and become pretty stellar adults. They loved on GB and he was smitten with them. Seeing Tony with all his kids made my mama heart way happy.

Leaving was hard as always. You want to stay in the happy family bubble but sadly you have to get back to the world.

Looking forward to more time as a family soon.

Did everyone have a good thanksgiving? Do anything special or fun?
Hope everyone is enjoying gearing up for the next family filled holiday….Christmas!

Until next time

















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I’ve been taking a little space from my blog and also from some of my other hobbies. It’s silly but I just became overwhelmed trying to meet a schedule for these things.
I felt like when it became a must do item it had the power to make me angry and frustrated when life made it difficult to get that done.

I missed it but it was nice to not be thinking of blog-able meals and crafts and remembering to take step by step photos every time I did something new or fun. That’s not to say I didn’t still do that on occasion in case I wanted to blog about something.

I am hoping to get back to at least twice a month posts and more recipes. That is what I started this blog to share. It just evolved into a place for me to share the pieces of my life I want to share with the Internet.

It’s funny I used to love to write and share and connect and something changed that in my early 20’s. I just suddenly felt I wasn’t nearly as good at writing as I had always believed. But then I started my blog and found I enjoyed the recipes but I also enjoyed writing a bit more again. I’m hoping to start finding a balance and something I can write about.

Maybe I should do a blog challenge next year! Anyone know a good one?

Anyways I Hope everyone has a lovely Thanksgiving next week.


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Halloween with The Bata Clan

So this year we had planned a huge family costume…but in the general theme of life it didn’t work out. We are hoping to go big next year.

However we decided GB needed an awesome costume since he was old enough to actually go trick or treating this year. He went as Olaf. He loved his costume and he LOVED trick or treating. More than the candy he loved getting attention and saying “biiiii”

I had to do some last minute altering because they sent the wrong size under body suit. But it all came out just fine.

So without further ado enjoy some cheesy Halloween pictures.

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The four gifts

Today is my wedding anniversary. We have been married for four years. That something close to 1,500 days. That’s alot of days. And as many of you know we haven’t spent more than two days apart in the stretch.
Seeing as I LOVE lists I decided to do one for my wonderful husband on this special day.
I give you the four greatest gifts Tony has given me during our marriage thus far.

1. Its goes without saying that our Son is number one. GB is everything I could have dreamed but better. He is funny and silly and makes the same faces his father does. Seeing those two together is an instant day maker. No its a life maker. I am so lucky to have a husband who is truly a partner…he helps me with every aspect of raising our son. Never is it solely my job to do something. And that’s big.

2. The strength to battles my demons and win. I spent many years feeling trapped by things and just settling for managing them as opposed to living free of them. But Tony helped me get to a place where I wanted better than that. And with his support, patience and endless encouragement there has been nothing I cant beat.

3. Unconditional love. Cheesy as that sounds its true. Never have I felt loved constantly in a relationship. (excluding parents and family) this was the first relationship in which I knew at all times, in all sizes and shapes, in my best and worst moods I was loved. I was cherished and I was deeply wanted. Having that enables you to live so fully. I hope he knows my love for him is always unconditional too.

4. Laughter. I don’t know if you know this but we think we are hilarious. We spend more time laughing and saying stupid things than is normal. We find everything funny. I know my ego has gotten quite large thanks to having a husband who laughs at my jokes. I am so glad our son will grow up knowing laughter is wonderful.

I could go on and on. Someday I hope to write 50 awesome reasons my husband is better than yours or some such dribble. But for now I will spend the day sifting thru the memories we have made this far and dreaming of the ones to come.

Thank you Tony. You are truly a gift.

Love Always

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So its been a hectic, busy and just intense couple months for us…but since we arrived in NC I have finally started to feel settled again. And I am finding I also feel more at peace here than I have in either Texas or California. This is a comparison to my love of Florida. I can actually see us putting down roots and being really happy here.

We have fought so hard to get back to Florida but maybe when we ask the universe all those months ago to tell if it was time to go for it or to give up it finally gave us our answer. I love Florida, it is where I first fell in love with the man who would become my husband. It is where I learned how amazing and happy I could be when I just jumped and hoped all the cards landed right. It is also where my drinking picked up speed and hurtled me towards my sobriety. That would have happened anywhere and I am actually really glad I became such a hot mess so fast….because I also got sober fast and get to stand where I stand now.

But back to the here and now. This move has been great for us…the weather here is pretty much perfect, last summer we were unable to leave the house from about end of June thru beginning of September because it was so HOT! Like the baby is gonna get heat stroke hot. We go for walks every morning and evening and its warm but its still pleasant. We have found a great walking trail over by our Trader Joes, there is a decent flea market and the downtown is a foodies paradise. Overall we are just really enjoying it.

And I am enjoying settling back into the lives we had before the poop hit the fan. Its nice to have more than ten outfits and having all my kitchen stuff back it like heaven on earth. I have been baking and watching Harry Potter pretty much non stop.

I am not sure what God has in the cards for us but if it is to stay here, get our own house and start making connections and finding places that feel like home I am alright with that. Florida isn’t that far away and I have heard it makes a great vacation spot! Who knew ;)

So how about some photos of our lovely summer so far? Enjoy you hooligans.

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And who knows what else the summer holds….it is after all almost my birthday week :)


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Breaking our streak

Aviary Photo_130211676071460092Fun little thing about us…we have not spent a night apart since June of 2010. Two months into dating Tony had to go on a business trip and I missed him so badly and he just wanted to come home early. Not long after that he got rid of his apartment and moved in with me and the rest is history.

Sadly the streak was broken this past week. Tony headed back to Texas to get all our stuff with my step son Joey. As sad as I was to spend a few nights apart it was for a good reason. Plus it helped remind me just how much I love having this wonderful man next to me every night and every morning. It also showed me how FREAKING tough single mums are…especially mums with toddlers. GB missed his dada-de and he let me know all day for two days.

It is so easy to start taking our partners and their presence for granted. But when they are suddenly gone even if its just for a few days you are reminded how lucky you are to have them. I was also reminded just how lucky I am that I married someone who I do love being around constantly. I’m even luckier he feels the same way. We do everything together and we actually enjoy it. SO yes it was hard to spend two days without him and I’m sure you all are shaking your heads like I am big baby….but oh well its how we are.

And I guess two days out of our entire marriage is okay ;)

Are you and your love attached at the hip?

Hope your all having a fantastic week.

Until next time,


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Pound cake with roasted cherries and chocolate sauce

Okay so a few weeks ago I had a sudden and bizarre craving for pound cake. I dont think I had ever actually eaten pound cake, but well I blame Harry Potter for this craving. I am reading them as usual  (12th time reading the series) and they always talk about the best and most amazing sounding foods at meal times. Hence why I made a roast and pound cake that Sunday.


Okay but back to the point….the pound cake. Having never made a pound cake I decided to trust the master on this one and went with Martha’s pound cake recipe. It was delicious and did not disappoint. That first night however I made it with some fresh raspberries I pureed. Something was missing. Not that it wasn’t good I just knew it could be better.



The next day while pursuing my Instagram feed one of the lovely ladies I follow Honey and the hive posted this amazing looking ice cream she had made. This is the original recipe for that in case that sounds good to you. Now while reading that recipe I saw the link for the roasted cherries and remembered we had some in the fridge that weren’t quite as good as I had hoped when I spent a small fortune on them (am I right?? cherries are way too expensive) So I decided to roast some cherries with GB.


I Tossed them in some sugar…I omitted the salt and pepper this go around but will probably try it next time.


Then my helper and I roasted them at 450 for about 10-12 minutes tossing them a couple times so the juices and sugar didn’t burn. We took them out and tossed them in vanilla as opposed to the brandy since it wasn’t gonna cook off and this is a dry campus up in here.


We set them aside in a bowl to cool and then pitted them. I don’t own a pitter (I will soon though because these are worth making again, also my computer says pitter isn’t a word but pater is?) so I used the end of one of my small sugar spoons to gouge the pits out. Later I cubed up some pound cake, warmed up the cherries and whipped up a batch of microwave fudge sauce and we ate the heck out of this stuff.

6tag_070714-195030Man oh man was it good. You should make it pronto…all of it, or parts of it, or whatever. So this means I can blame Harry Potter for my weight gain riiiight?

What are your food creations lately?

Ever been inspired in the kitchen by the books you love?

If so leave me a comment I’d love to hear all about it.

Until the next time


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sober me

Wow. It has been one entire year since I stopped drinking. I remember on day 4 looking at my ‘quitter app’ thinking ‘gosh four days is not very long… but soon this will say 1 month, then 6 months, and then 1 year – you can do it.’ I had no idea I would grow and change so much. I had no idea I wouldn’t have to endure my life anymore. I had no idea how fucking happy and awesome I would become during these 365 days. I shouldn’t act like I can’t believe it, because I can – I made all the choices to stay sober and did all the work. I guess if anything I just can’t believe how amazing life is sober and I am in awe everyday at how much more awesome life gets.

On July 24, 2013, I knew I was done with alcohol indefinitely…

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