Pound cake with roasted cherries and chocolate sauce

28 Jul

Okay so a few weeks ago I had a sudden and bizarre craving for pound cake. I dont think I had ever actually eaten pound cake, but well I blame Harry Potter for this craving. I am reading them as usual  (12th time reading the series) and they always talk about the best and most amazing sounding foods at meal times. Hence why I made a roast and pound cake that Sunday.

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Okay but back to the point….the pound cake. Having never made a pound cake I decided to trust the master on this one and went with Martha’s pound cake recipe. It was delicious and did not disappoint. That first night however I made it with some fresh raspberries I pureed. Something was missing. Not that it wasn’t good I just knew it could be better.

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The next day while pursuing my Instagram feed one of the lovely ladies I follow Honey and the hive posted this amazing looking ice cream she had made. This is the original recipe for that in case that sounds good to you. Now while reading that recipe I saw the link for the roasted cherries and remembered we had some in the fridge that weren’t quite as good as I had hoped when I spent a small fortune on them (am I right?? cherries are way too expensive) So I decided to roast some cherries with GB.

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I Tossed them in some sugar…I omitted the salt and pepper this go around but will probably try it next time.

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Then my helper and I roasted them at 450 for about 10-12 minutes tossing them a couple times so the juices and sugar didn’t burn. We took them out and tossed them in vanilla as opposed to the brandy since it wasn’t gonna cook off and this is a dry campus up in here.

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We set them aside in a bowl to cool and then pitted them. I don’t own a pitter (I will soon though because these are worth making again, also my computer says pitter isn’t a word but pater is?) so I used the end of one of my small sugar spoons to gouge the pits out. Later I cubed up some pound cake, warmed up the cherries and whipped up a batch of microwave fudge sauce and we ate the heck out of this stuff.

6tag_070714-195030Man oh man was it good. You should make it pronto…all of it, or parts of it, or whatever. So this means I can blame Harry Potter for my weight gain riiiight?

What are your food creations lately?

Ever been inspired in the kitchen by the books you love?

If so leave me a comment I’d love to hear all about it.

Until the next time

Tannith

ONE YEAR BOOZE-FREE.

24 Jul

Originally posted on ghostfaceknitter:

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Wow. It has been one entire year since I stopped drinking. I remember on day 4 looking at my ‘quitter app’ thinking ‘gosh four days is not very long… but soon this will say 1 month, then 6 months, and then 1 year – you can do it.’ I had no idea I would grow and change so much. I had no idea I wouldn’t have to endure my life anymore. I had no idea how fucking happy and awesome I would become during these 365 days. I shouldn’t act like I can’t believe it, because I can – I made all the choices to stay sober and did all the work. I guess if anything I just can’t believe how amazing life is sober and I am in awe everyday at how much more awesome life gets.

On July 24, 2013, I knew I was done with alcohol indefinitely…

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BriBri’s super duper amazing year

24 Jul

Today my best friend and crafting genius Ghostfaceknitter is celebrating one year sober. To say I am proud doesn’t even cover it. I knew she could do it the moment she text me and told me it was time…and I have be so lucky to be part of this great adventure and huge step she has taken to make her life fantastically breathtakingly wonderful.

My life would be quite lonely without this lady….which is surprising considering we could have been friends a long time ago but were too young, competitive and obviously insane. But thankfully we are in each others lives now, and it is so amazing to have someone aside from the Hubs who gets the sober life. Who cherishes it rather than sees it as a struggle to maintain. Bri and I both didn’t go the AA path…we found once we stopped drinking our lives were so vastly improved we didn’t actually miss drinking. How could we want to go back to where we were when the view from here is so perfect.

This last year has been the stuff of movies for my dearest BriBri….she has kicked toxic people from her life, developed a love of health and caring for her body, started crafting vigorously ( which is leading to her own online shop soon!!) she cooks, bikes, boxes, runs and just does things she loves for herself because she can. She has taken her life back and I am in awe of her strength, determination and mostly the love she has shown herself. Not all of us learn to love ourselves wholly and for who we are. Bri is a source of inspiration to me every single day and keeps my head on straight when I doubt myself. Those who call her friend are blessed beyond measure.

365 days is a long time. And I know the next 365 the next 1000 the next 10,000 will be even more amazing. So join me today and raise a glass of Kombucha (moldy tea which I’m told is delicious) to the amazing, astounding, silly and ridiculous best friend a girl could ask for miss BriBri!

I love you girl. You kick so much butt its crazy.

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Now please enjoy some of my favorite pictures from her last year :)

 

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Who do you know who got a tattoo in Thailand by a monk?

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She’s not the only one who loves the new bike!

Game of thrones crotchet…yes that’s a thing

The vest from hell….that came out soooo cute!

Taking on new craft projects

What a difference a year can make..the girl on the right knows whats up :)

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You know you want these all over your house!

Kicking some butt!

I seriously love the woman you are and am so impressed you continue to find ways to become happier and healthier mentally, physically and spiritually every single day.

I love you Mucho Stoopy Pants!

GB’s 1st Bday flash back post

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I said I was gonna get a couple posts up that happened while life was a bit busy the last couple months. Nana Fifi and Poppie D came up for GB’s first bday and to check out Seattle. Sadly they came right when things hit the fan up there for us and we spent most of their trip getting ready to leave. To say it was stressful at times would be an understatement. It was not how I had imagined mothers day and GB’s first birthday at all but we did make the best of it.

Soooo enjoy some pictures of the fun filled week we spent exploring and enjoying each others company.

 

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Nana Arrives

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Checking out Pikes Place

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My Beautiful Mum

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Napping with Stanley

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Family shot minus the sleeping baby

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Mothers Day Dinner at Bizarro

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Mum and Dougie

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Birthday Boy!

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All in all it was a beautiful few days. I got to spend mothers day with my mum and celebrate my sweet boys 1st birthday. Then the next day we began the next adventure to our new home. I will get that post up in the next few days and hopefully stay on track from here on out. I have an amazing pound cake recipe with roasted cherries I am working on for you all.

Hope your having a fantastic week.

Love

Tannith

 

The worst blogger ever

3 Jul

If there was an award I think I would be a strong contender. I feel awful I haven’t been on here sharing GB’s first birthday pictures and Mums visit up to the pacific northwest and I feel even worse that I haven’t shared that Seattle was a bust for us. There is so much that has been going on and I have been overwhelmed and just burnt out.

I felt pretty beat up by the world and we were just hanging on and treading water. We have managed to survive and we are slowly starting the thrive again. I am hoping this holiday weekend will allow me to do a few flash back posts and fill you in on GB’s first birthday as well as the second cross country move for us this year. I think doing one big catch up post will be too much so I will be breaking it up a little.

I am happy to be back and even thru all of this mess I have been incredibly blessed.
Stick around I swear I’m coming back…hopefully better than ever.

Love
Tannith

A letter to GB on his first birthday

12 May

If you don’t like sappy sweet stuff you might just want to stop now and come back on another day 😁 because I plan to mushy all over this blog today.

Today my sweet little honey monkey turns one. He has lived out in this world for a year and he has become my whole world. He brings Tony and I a plethora of joy, laughter and bliss. He has turned me into someone who cries while looking down on him sleeping. He is the best parts of us and I can hardly wait to see the wonderful man he becomes.

I can’t take any credit for this idea of writing a letter on his birthday. I have seen many people do letters to their children. Both online and off. The one who inspired me was none other than my favorite blogger motherhoodwtf  the wonderful Allison. I remember reading her letters before I had GB and going someday I will do that too.

 

To my sweet GB,

Today you are one year old. Its hard to believe its been a year since I first held you. You have completed me in a way I didn’t think possible. I have a purpose now and while some might not consider it a worth while one or even a real job to me it is what I was born to do. You are the best thing I have ever done. My greatest accomplishment.

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In the hospital

You are by no means a perfect child. Funny thing they don’t exist. But if they did you would be very close 😜 although those first three months were rough kiddo. You screamed and fought and refused to sleep and I felt like I was doing it all wrong and that I’d never get it right and you’d end up shoveling elephant poop at the circus. But we made it. Your dad, you and me we pulled thru and we fell into a happy routine.

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sleep is for suckers ma

You are so funny and so full of zest. Your a stinker who gets into everything and you are constantly getting hurt. You seem to have inherited my lack of grace.  You come stumbling towards me face red, tears streaming like I can fix it all. And for now I mostly can. I hope you’ll always come to me knowing my arms will always be there and I’ll always try and help.

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swim time

I dont exactly know what to write in this letter. I don’t know how to convey what a special, silly nutty little boy you are. How much laughter and love you have brought us. I wish I could describe the feelings I felt when I first held you, first heard your laugh, first held your hand. It was like I made sense. Suddenly my life was bigger than I ever knew it could be.

I can’t wait to see you grow and change. I dread it because I love these moments now. I love our days together and how much you need me. But I do look forward to the young man you will become.

I can already see the funny, bright, outgoing guy you are going to be. You’re such a flirt and you can charm even the crankiest of waitresses. You love you dog and playing with my phone. Your favorite foods are pear and pineapple sauce, waffle wheels and chocolate. Your favorite times of the day are waking up and when “da da da” comes home from work. You love to help me clean and have an odd fixation with the dishwasher. Your laugh makes me laugh till I cry and your cry can break my heart. You are a million little things that make up the most wonderful little boy ever.

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playing with “da da da”

And today you are one year old, you are a toddler now. You will keep learning new and funny things and you will run towards the future at speeds I can’t slow down. You will always be my precious sweet baby and I will cherish this first year always. Thank you for choosing me to be your mummy. Thank you for loving as hard as you do.

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GB and FJ

Looking forward to many more years with you my sweet boy.

Love Always

Your Mum

 

The top 10 things that have changed since I quit drinking

2 May

Today is my 2 year Soberversary. Last year I wrote a fairly simply sappy post. I re-read it today and the last post I wrote before getting sober for good and my what a change. I decided to keep it mostly light and funny today and do a top ten!
Y’all know how I love a good list.

So lets begin.

Top 10 things that have changed since I quit drinking and started being a functioning member of society:

1. My bed time…but seriously. I used to stay up past 2am most nights so I could keep drinking and watch the Disney channel. I know odd combo but clearly it wasn’t my biggest issue. Now we are generally in bed no later than ten and if I stay up reading till midnight I am cursing my impulsive behavior and telling myself how much I am going to regret this indulgence the next day. Oh how times have changed.

2. Pre-gamming. That word alone used to be one of my favorites that and to-go beverage. (Seriously who needs a cocktail to go shopping) Once upon a time this used to mean getting intoxicated before we went out to get more intoxicated….now it means downing a sufficient amount of coffee so I can manage to stay up past 10pm and carry on adult conversations. You think I’m kidding but I have my last cup of coffee around 4pm and that is the only thing that makes it so I can make dinner and handle the bedtime shenanigans in this house.

3. My waistline…and praise the good lord for this one. I knew being a lush was bad for the fairly standard list of reasons, but no one informed me about the gaining nearly 50lbs. I mean it makes sense now. I was drinking my daily calories on top of eating them and not doing any exercise. Because you know its hard to stay on an elliptical while your toasted like a campfire marshmallow.

4.Things I consider fun. If you had told me I would enjoy scrambling up mountains and rocks without makeup on, slathered in sunscreen I would have died laughing in your face. Jogging? GET OUT OF HERE! Bike Riding? Tennis? Studying? Knitting? Crafting? Cooking? Learning new and sometimes difficult to master things?? WHHHAAAAAA?!?! I know seriously drunk me was BORING. Like what did I do all day? Honestly one look at my netflix queue from back then tells you…I watched a lot of bad TV and sat around being lost.

5. My demons….while I am not saying I am completely without issues I have fought and won a lot of the battles I was too scared to fight back then. I know its scary and I know so many of us think we can’t be sober because the second the booze leaves our veins we are left standing there with our walls down and all the doubt, pain, hurt and mess comes flooding in and we feel like we can’t swim. I will never say it was easy…it was hard and I was drowning in shame. But I held on and I learned that the second I faced some of this stuff and worked thru it it was gone. Not there to haunt me anymore, I didn’t need to numb it because I had gotten rid of it. Its amazing how we think drinking solves those problems. It doesn’t…for me airing my issues and finding my faith again and getting love from those around me was what helped.

6.No more drama! No drunken text fights, no screaming matches I can’t remember and no people I swear are looking at me funny. I’m not constantly looking to “start shit” . When I think of the amount of sheer stupid that followed me everywhere I dont know how I didn’t drive Tony insane.

7.My friendships. I no longer need to chase people around desperate for their friendship and acceptance. I am so blessed to have the amazing women I have as my best friends and the countless other wonderful friends who love me, support me and just rock! I have learned how to have happy, healthy adult friendships that aren’t one sided.

8.My mental state.  I truly feel bad for anyone who had to encounter me back in the spring of 2012..I owned the term hot mess. I was on so much medication and booze I don’t know how I even stood up straight. I needed help and I wasn’t willing to admit it. I couldn’t handle anything. The simplest of problem sent me reeling and into melt down. I am so different now. I handle whatever is thrown at me, I am happy, content and full of so much more energy. I haven’t taken medication for any of my former issues in two years almost and I now firmly believe in trying to deal with these issues naturally. I feel I should state this is not an option for everyone and I do not want it to seem I am condemning anyone who needs medication. It truly saved me and helped me get to a place I could safely start to deal with my demons.

9.The person I am. I am a long way from the perfect person. I will never get there. But I am certainly closer to my idea of who I wanted to be when I grew up. I am kinder, stronger and less selfish. I have so much I still want to learn and put into practice in my life. There are wrongs I committed I still want to right and messes I made that probably still need cleaning. But the difference now is I take responsibility, I admit when I’m wrong and I try my darnedest to fix things instead of running.

10. My family….this one seems kind of like “Duh” but you know I don’t care. Man oh man has my family changed. I have the sweetest little honey monkey now and my marriage is a place of refuge and comfort when the world is scary and hard. I have a wonderful extended family and parents who I would just die without. I have two step kids who are growing up into wonderful adults and who I feel I am finally getting to know. I have in laws who opened their home to us and then I have the best husband on the earth. I don’t know what I would do without him. I wouldn’t be where I am without his help, support and willingness to sort thru the pieces and help put me back together.

I love you Tony….you are what makes this all worth it. Well you and GB and mister Flapjack, My boys.

Thank you for reading and sharing my special anniversary with me. All of you remind me all the time why this life is so special and why getting sober was the best gift I could have ever given myself.

Love

Tannith

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Our New Home in The Pacific Northwest

11 Apr

Or the Great White North as Tony has taken to calling it. Last week we reached our final destination (oh please oh please be our home for awhile) in Washington. We are living in the Seattle area and so far we really LOVE IT! We both worried it was not gonna be for us at all. Like Tony kind of clenched the steering wheel and I chewed all my nails off on the drive up.

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We got here and found a perfect place to move into temporarily or if we want we can stay in this place long term. Which is amazing! To have the option and time to plan where we want to live for once it refreshing and removed a lot of the usual stress. The people we are renting from seem nice and not crooks like our former landlord. So That is a big weigh off our shoulders. The scenery here just beautiful. We have been enjoying hiking and getting outside daily.

 

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We just feel so blessed to be here and to have found a place so quickly. We can’t thank our friends and family enough who held us up, prayed for us, loved on us and kept us smiling. We are just so rich with amazing friends and family, we hope that you all will come up and visit us. And my husband….what a blessing that man is. I am so lucky to have someone who can spring into action, set things up and make sure we are safe and taken care of while he looks for work. I can’t believe how strong he is and how hard he works for us.

I will hopefully get a couple of the on hold posts up soon and I want to get back to a weekly recipe or just me cooking some delicious stuff for you guys. Thank you for rooting for us and sticking around.

For now I am gonna enjoy some NA Champagne and a toasty fire….and relax.

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Until next time

Tannith

 

Blessings

19 Mar
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Checking out Caesar’s Casino and Forum Shops

In the midst of all the chaos that has been our life the last couple weeks I have been amazed by all the blessings we have. Blessings come in many forms, most of ours have been people. From our family to our friends we are so heavily blessed its almost not fair.It would be so easy to get mad and upset and whine and complain about how its not fair. But the truth is God doesn’t give with both hands…..but he does give.

And he has given us some amazing people to help us not only now but everyday. From my parents, to my wonderful in laws who have taken us into their home and just loved us and welcomed us, to my amazing best friends BB and Court. I just feel so grateful….and the moments I start to feel sorry for myself God sends me a small but effective reminder. There is always someone who needs your help, your strength, your love or just some of your time. And I am so glad we have people who give us all of that and remind us to keep being positive and grateful.

Courtney the kiddos and myself at brunch

Courtney the kiddos and myself at brunch

Our travels have been quite fun so far and have allowed us to spend some time with friends and family we haven’t seen before. GB has been able to meet quite a few of those near and dear to us for the first time.

GB meet his big brother for the first time.

GB meet his big brother for the first time.

We spent a lovely day catching up with friends while we visited Colorado. Ate too much, laughed a lot and even got a little choked up *cough* mum *cough* when this guy showed up :)

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Meeting Grandpa Dave

We also took some naps with our other Grandpa Rome <3

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Loving his Gpa

We are so fortunate to be able to find time to hike and walk and get out and enjoy nature. We have been on several beautiful hikes lately that I cant wait to share with you all.

 

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And one of the biggest blessings out of all of this that I never saw coming are Tony’s parents. They have opened their home to us and made us feel so completely welcome. It was not something I would have expected a few years back. But to see them with GB and to hear Tony laughing and telling stories from his childhood is just amazing. Its amazing the joy that comes from family. And now that I have my own child its just so wonderful to surround ourselves with family and give him as much time as we can with those who love and cherish him.

Naps with his grandparents

Naps with his grandparents

Thru all of this I just keep being amazed at the special and fun moments we have had. I just couldn’t do all of this without all of our friends and family. They hold us up when we feel down. And I would be lost completely without my husband. He is my rock. He helps me with everything, our son, cooking, cleaning and holding it together. He cheers me up when I feel mean and crabby. I just couldn’t do it without him.

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“you’re my end and my beginning. Even when I lose I’m winning”

Thanks for reading my mushy post. I will be posting an update when we find out where it is we are headed. For now I leave you with one more adorable picture. This sweet little lady made all our hearts melt when she looked up held GB’s hand and said;

“We will be best friends forever.”

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GB and S March 2014

Love Y’all

Tannith

Finding my faith

3 Mar

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On Friday the Hubs was laid off, along with his entire department. To say it was a shock would be an understatement. GB and I were about to head out on a walk when I got a text that said..

“Head home now. I have very bad news. I am coming home.”

My first thoughts were something had happened to one of my step kids, my in laws, or my parents. Then my mind went to a few other places but this was so out of left field the thought that Tony might have lost his job didn’t even cross my mind.

Finding ourselves in this situation a year after moving here and dealing with the job search, and the stress of having no income is hard. I wish I could say its easy to remain positive. That all the work I have done to change is paying off because this isn’t even phasing me. But that would be a lie. I am stressed, scared, tired, angry, and at the same time relieved it didn’t happen at a worse time. However I find myself being calmer than last time and calmer than I was in the past in scary situations. What is this big difference you ask? My faith. Quite simply for the last year and a bit I have been trying to learn to welcome God back into my life and my heart. Which hasn’t been easy. A lot of damage was done to that relationship. It has been hard for me to feel like I would ever get back to that place of joy, trust and peace with God. I strayed so far and closed the doors of my heart so tightly.

Most of you know I am not perfect, I have made many mistakes and a lot of those mistakes have cost me. At the time I thought the costs were earthly things. Not until my heart started to ache and yearn for something I remembered but no longer had did I decide I wanted….NEEDED to find a way back to my faith. You would think it would be a matter of wanting it and just letting yourself go back to that place. But its not. When there is pain and damage you have to sort out all of that. You have to go back and deal with a lot of things you just swept under the rug. You have to ask for forgiveness and you have to move forward. That was the hardest part for me. Forgiveness. I had to forgive myself and that was oh so hard. I consider myself a forgiving person, I give second, third, eighth chances to everyone but myself. So learning to treat myself with a little more kindness and love myself unconditionally just the way God does has been a big journey for me.

And I’m not done, not even close. But my renewed closeness to God has allowed me to for once in my life put my trust and this whole awful stressful situation in his hands. I have prayed for several months about where we are supposed to settle and on Friday he may have just given us the answer. I am not sure what is the next step but I know if I trust him and listen I will find it.

What all of this means is we are most likely leaving Texas (95 percent chance) we are packing up our home once again and preparing for yet another journey. We have so much to do and so much to decide and I am already blown away by the support and love those near and dear to us have shown us. And to all you wonderful readers thank you for reading what I have to say, and giving me a place to grow.

I look forward to this next adventure and I ask for some prayers or good vibes or whatever you can send our way. Moving with a baby potentially across the country is gonna take A LOT of prayers and patience.

Love

Tannith

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